Should I have broken this promise?

[aaliyah]

I don't even know how to start this but here goes: I have a baby daughter.I have gone back to work because my husband wasn't able to find full-time employment and we had been struggling alot for a long time.I was sexually abused as a child and because of this I had made a promise to myself to never leave my daughter if i ever had one with a male or any suspicious females not even her father or family members.Now that I have come back to work I am losing my mind almost in fear that my husband would molest our child.I see no signs,he is saved,sanctified and spirit-filled but I just can't let it go.I broke my promise to myself and my baby and now I'm living a tormented life.i can't think straight and so nervous that one day i'm gonna go home and find something wrong with my daughter.
Am i paranoid?should i just trust my husband?or are my fears normal.Please help.

[auneeqsol]

Aaliyah sweetie I know where you're coming from, I have a similar story as far as the molestation part, but I really believe you are letting what happened to you dictate the rest of your life. God didnt allow that to happen to you , to break you down, but if you allow it to, the experience can make you stronger, seeing that you have survived such a thing in your life.

But I would tell you to trust God. Your paranoia is only because of what happened to you, but if you love your husband and trust him as a person, and if you have no evidence of nothing like that going on, then you should learn to ease your mind about it, and recognize that the enemy is trying to steal your peace by replaying the situation back to you and stalking you with the memory of what happened and he is being the Father of lies that he is by lying to you and making you think something is going on. Beleive that your husband is a repectable, saved man of God that loves the Lord and his family and will never do anything to hurt his child or you. If you feel comfortable enough, you could talk with your husband about it and let him know your fears because of what happened. If he is sensitive he will assure you in love that everything is okay. I shared with my husband my situation of what happened to me, but not my thoughts about him because they were brief. After a little while they diminished so they were no longer a threat. But you have faith , and let your love for him which God has given you believe the best. "Love hopeth all things" And tell yourself what happened to you will not haunt you for the rest of your life.

I even had that experience with my lil girls and husband briefly, and it was the enemy lying to me trying to get me to fear. My husband loves our children to death! And I believe yours is the same. Let the peace of God Reign in your heart and mind over the enemy, and cast down every imagination that exalteth itself above God in your life. You are being tested with your testimony, so its like a double whammy the enemy is trying to pull on you. He couldnt destroy your life the first time, so he'll use a memory of that very thing to try and destroy it now. So I hope you see that the promise you made to yourself was indeed made out of fear and insecurity, and therefore is not a healthy commitment. Let go and Live!

Stand up to Satan and believe what God is saying. Pray and seek the Lord , He will let you know what's going on and comfort your heart. If we seek him we wont be in the dark, God will not let us be put to confusion, because he is not the author of confusion. But he is the author and finisher of our faith, and we can rest and move in that. Be encouraged,you will overcome just like I did, and let peace reign!!

[lanl nsi]

Amen agreeing with Uneeq:

Father God please give my sister peace and comfort in her mind, soul and spirit regarding this situation in Jesus name.......

[G]

imho...no u shouldn't have broken the promise.

[stillfocused]

The promise that you was made to yourself and not to God. And you have done the right thing. It's important for children to bond with both parents and since your husband is not working at time..allow him to be a part of her life in every aspect. He will appreciate what you do all the more. Please talk to your husband about what you're feeling and remember that the experience was horrible that there will come a day who will minister to another who has gone through the same thing. Also, the enemy knows that if he can keep you paralyzed with fear and torment that you will not become a threat to his kingdom; and way that you are being attacked you may a major threat in preventing him from destroying the lives of others. And finally, please seek Godly counsel concerning this situation.

[kanyon]

Hope, dreams and fears are self fullfilling prophesies.

That which we hold to the most, attracts the conditions that will fullfill them. Therefore replace fear with hope and new dreams.

You will find wonderfull changes beginning to happen as you see your new expectations (faith) comming to pass.