Post by beautifulchild on Apr 6, 2006 14:50:56 GMT -5
Hi All,
I wasn't sure where to post this, so if the moderators need to move it I understand. I am struggling with something and I have found that in the past my friends on the message board have helped.
I am at a point right now in my walk that I'm wondering if what I am trying to achieve is attainable for me? I rededicated my life to Christ a little over 4 years ago. I made a commitment to get my life right and to do what God would have me do. I managed to stay celibate for the past 4 plus years, but recently fell into sexual sin. I hate to use the word fell, because I know I made the choice. I'm not looking to blame anyone but me.
I feel horrible about it. I have disappointed myself and most importantly I know I disappointed God. God even warned me of a test that was coming some weeks ago. He used another woman to warn me and I STILL didn't get it right!
I haven't been back to church because I feel too ashamed to go there. I have been feeling like, why try. I can't be who God called me to be. I'm not even worthy of the dreams he's given me. It's not just this sin. What about all of the other sins I commit on a daily basis, like my mouth (gossip, ect.). I just see how much I'm failing and I wonder how can I ever be who God called me to be?
I'm just at the point where I'm about to say forget it. I do love God, but I'm already failing him
I wasn't sure where to post this, so if the moderators need to move it I understand. I am struggling with something and I have found that in the past my friends on the message board have helped.
I am at a point right now in my walk that I'm wondering if what I am trying to achieve is attainable for me? I rededicated my life to Christ a little over 4 years ago. I made a commitment to get my life right and to do what God would have me do. I managed to stay celibate for the past 4 plus years, but recently fell into sexual sin. I hate to use the word fell, because I know I made the choice. I'm not looking to blame anyone but me.
I feel horrible about it. I have disappointed myself and most importantly I know I disappointed God. God even warned me of a test that was coming some weeks ago. He used another woman to warn me and I STILL didn't get it right!
I haven't been back to church because I feel too ashamed to go there. I have been feeling like, why try. I can't be who God called me to be. I'm not even worthy of the dreams he's given me. It's not just this sin. What about all of the other sins I commit on a daily basis, like my mouth (gossip, ect.). I just see how much I'm failing and I wonder how can I ever be who God called me to be?
I'm just at the point where I'm about to say forget it. I do love God, but I'm already failing him
