TONEX RETIRES FROM THE MUSIC INDUSTRY

[keita]

It's still difficult for me to read this young brother's words. He's just bleeding all over the page and his pain is palpable to me.

It's hard to know (and truly not my business) how God will have this brother journey through this hard place. But I have every confidence that God knows and has it all under control.

While it may certainly be true that He is to keep doing exactly what he's doing in terms of pastoring, I think Sis Nikkol has a legitimate concern as well. It has been my experience that unhealed and hurting people can indeed do a lot of damage from a pulpit and in church leadership. I'm just saying that I think as encouragers, it's worth considering that sometimes we actually do need to, as Sis Bee says, "go somewhere and sit down..."

misskaylander said:

Do you know how many people are in a valley experience and GOD still gives them enough strength to minister His word? I have been dealing with a sickness for the last 10 years, when I can't get a word for MYSELF, GOD sends SOMEBODY for me to give a word to...when you don't focus on yourself sometimes you can help somebody else...

Just my opinion...

Isn't it awesome how He does that?

I think there's a big clue to how that works in something that is often commonly said when ministering to others: "God gave ME a word for you."

And on another (but kinda related) note:

It seems to me (and some others I've shared it with) that God actually often seems to respond even more readily to prayers we pray for someone else than to those we pray for ourselves.

Hmmmmmmm...

[auneeqsol]

But you know I really understand where did brother is right now....because I guess I should say on a lower scale i'm in the same position now, as far as having stepped away from a position in the forefront ministering to others.

Sometimes it can be hard to "go through the fire" and ppl look at you like afterwards you dont supposed to smell like smoke. (and the 3 hebrew boys come to mind right now) but God allows some things for a reason.

And man church folks can really take you through the ringer big time!!!! And not so much that you let them or allow them to get to you, it can be because you are willing to stand up in the face of the storm and yet press through.

Now thats the difference between me and him at this time. He is bleeding bad right now, I mean his heart is gushing, poor brother, but he will go through and transition on to the next stage, as soon as he gets that "Word" from the Lord, it will boost his confidence in God and in knowing who God said he was, and walking in that in the presence of your enemies. Now im at that place now. I dont want to call saints my enemies because I know we dont wrestle against flesh and blood, but come on if we be real, there are some ppl that just allow the enemy to turn their heart against some bros and sis in Christ, and jealousy and everything else comes in.

Like I said I have experienced this but of course on a lower scale, i mean not in the mainstream gospel industry. God had to raise me up, because some saints was making me feel like I was limited and could only go so far, you know operate in mediocrisy.

I am a minister of music, I also teach the word of God, but I write and produce music, and I hope you all will patronize a sista one day when you hear me out there glorifying God and building the kingdom....

I wont go into my whole story, but I was m.o.m. at my church, and a whole mess broke out, jealousy, competitive spirits, and pride and the whole nine ganged up on me, so I resigned my positiion but I still go to the church.....imagine how that is!!!! And this came from the leaders.... But how many know its all about God's timing? ;)I had friends to turn on me in a sense and talk to others about the fact that Im confused in God dont know what is going on in my life, but to be honest , peace is back in , no more bickering, missing sleep, being hurt about how folks feel about you, how folks went off on you in front of your peers in the name of the Lord.... but now I have so much direction, and enthusiasm in my spirit, because I have seen what God wants to do with me, and it is great only for his glory... Some times you have to bow out gracefully or run and dont look back...Jesus had to do it, because the environment was hostile from "Church Folk"
The pharisees wanted to stone him right then, but it wasnt time for that, so Jesus cut out of the scene... ;D
With me it was better to do it for peace sake. There was no use going on and leadership was not on one accord. But because of my decision, I am not allowed to even participate in other auxillaries in the church...it's not like i sinned and had to be banned from church activities, I resigned peacefully, but you know some ppl have to have the last word. But now I speak to them and show love and go on. And since then God has opened up doors for my husband and myself to minister to others and really bring life and a freshness to the body of Christ on having a kingdom mentality, and Im grateful to God for that.

In due time we will be released, but for the time I sit humbly in the background still praisin God. While ppl treat me like Im a visitor, when i ministered for yrs...but
I said all that to say this:

If his trust is in the Lord totally , you can know he's coming out, but its a process, and its a step by step thing. God had let me know after a while that it wasnt about church. That he has called me to minister and build the kingdom. And when I heard Tonex say that in his interview it was sort of like a confirmation to me that this was a God thing and not something I just decided to do and say!!!! So I praise God for the testimony of others it blessed me even though the circumstances were somewhat difficult, but I know he will get through it, if he keeps the faith. It's just a process . See when you kick against the norm ppl dont know how to accept you so they change modes. They try to say youre out of the will, youre doing your own thing, you are being rebellious etc...but God!!!

God is awesome yall, Im glad he doesnt fit into man's box. Like Tonex' Out of the Box!!! Some stuff folks be doing, God dont be no where in it, but time will tell all.

He's coming through this with flying colors IF his trust is in the Lord.

But as for me, I have peace like a river, and a vision of great Destiny in God!!!! The sky is the limit yall...

[Bee]

He needs to mature and learn to get over offence. Maybe this is the purpose. Frankly inasmuch as i am sure he is hurting his letter sounds very self-pitying.

I see the 'Rebirth' Album coming

Oh how good it is when the Lord sits you down through circumstances!!!!! He will surely come out a warrior if His trust remains in the Lord! We pray u thru brodaman!

[Jasmine]

some of us need a re-birth.

[Bee]

Yes!!!! I wholeheartedly agree!! Starting with me the chief of sinners!!

Thank you Lord!

[Jasmine]

Well I wont be chief, but I was amongst them..lol

[keita nsi]

I'm "seconding that emotion" and taking my place in line!

[Bee]

Glory!! Afterall it is time for all of us to get back on the altar-Arch-pope to scullery maid.

Down down and broken before the Christ-yes it is us o lord standing in the need of prayer for woe is us!!!!

Thank you for being the God who loves us enough to reveal us to us so that you can elevate us further into sonship

*Clap for Jesus*

[Jasmine]

*clap* your hands, oh ye gates,
and be ye lifted up ye everlasting doors
and the King of Glory Shall come in

Who is this King of Glory
The Lord God strong and mighty
Who is this King of Glory
The Lord God mighty in Battle

He is the King of Glory!

So lift up your hands oh ye gates, and be ye lifted up
Ye everlasting doors, and yes, I said Yes, the King of Glory Shall come in!

*Give the Lord a hand praise for the Glorious things that He has done*!

[keita]

CLAP! CLAP! CLAP!

Revive us again!
Fill each heart with thy love!
May our souls be rekindled with fire from above!

HALLELUJAH! Thine the glory!
HALLELUJAH! Amen!
HALLELUJAH! Thine the glory!

REVIVE US AGAIN!

[Bee]

BYes Lord!! Praise you for our precious brother and praise you because you are our eternal bridegroom from whose hand no one will ever snatch us away from!!

Maranatha Lord Jesus!!

[keita]

Revival!
Recovery!
Restoration!

Thank you, Lord!!!

Lord Make Me Over Again

-by Tonex

you know my other side I can no longer hide
let you down so many times sin freshly crucifies
thought that I had a plan had it all figured out
but the more that you tried to be by my side
the more I pushed you out

refrain:
lord make me over
lord make me over
lord make me over
make me over again
make me over again
make me over again

time after time I failed you
pierced your side when they already nailed you
jesus heal my open wound
I just want to be more like you
father I let you down
whats not like you just take it out
reconcile me jesus
I just want to please you
wash me and make me whole

refrain

[MsKayLander]

Bee said:

He needs to mature and learn to get over offence. Maybe this is the purpose. Frankly inasmuch as i am sure he is hurting his letter sounds very self-pitying.

I see the 'Rebirth' Album coming

Oh how good it is when the Lord sits you down through circumstances!!!!! He will surely come out a warrior if His trust remains in the Lord! We pray u thru brodaman!

Wow Bee, I didn't expect that from you... Sometimes it's difficult... we don't know what he has had to suffer only the parts that he wishes to share. I don't know how I would react if I am constantly called a cross-dressing weirdo...we tell people they should have "thick skins" but at the end of the day... it hurts, I don't care how saved and sanctified you are. When people that are supposed to love you to life, don't accept you... it hurts and regardless of how we feel spiritually, our heart sometimes breaks when our brothers and sisters shoot daggers at us and don't really know who we are in Him... I don't know, maybe I am always feeling for those that are rejected... but it hurts me as he is crying out and it seems like those that should be lifting him are telling him "shut up and grow up"...

Nothing against you personally Bee, but I know you understand what I am saying....

[auneeqsol]

Yeah Miss Kay, at the end of the day when everything adds up you realize the reality of what's goin on, and sometimes you feel like it would be better if you just cut out , than try to battle with certain folks and certain issues. I did learn though that ppl are going to be ppl, and do and say what they want.

But also it makes a big difference when these ppl play a vital role in your life. So how they receive you can make you or break you in a sense. And they have a big impact on how others receive you. So the best thing to do sometimes is to disconnect the Power from that person or ppl. A person can only have power over you from what you give them. And there are ways to regain control of yourself, and one of those ways are to cut their power source off from you. Even though it hurts a whole lot, there is a sense of peace in it, your'e not in the crossfire anymore.

[Beulah5]

Go on and preach Misskay and i know u love me so feel free to rebuke me anytime

Thing is there are 2 sides to God. Both the shepherd and the lion.

Just cause i express one side of the gospel does not mean i do not feel or agree with the other.

Tonex has been hurt and i sympathise but surely is that not the will of God? That we be crushed till we despair for life so that folks can attest to a power beyond what is in the earthen ware vessel.

At the end of the day offences will come-those are the words of Jesus. When i heard this brother's testimony the first thing that came to remembrance was the number of times i have suffered such pain and betrayal however these were the very agents which led me to start having divine encounters with the Lord.

I will never have known what it means to be rescued by an angel literally had folks not driven me to suicide and so for that i thank my enemies because THEY ARE MY ANOINTING!

Tonex is hurt but when he realises that this is God opening the door for him to come further into the secret place he is going to come out thanking us all.

What kept Jesus on the cross? The glory that was set before Him and so to all who i meet i will continue to say: no more complaining!!!because you my enemy has caused my head to run over with oil and have produced me a table in the presence of my enemies.

Take the pain broda!!